Sunday, January 31, 2016

Proof


The number of people who have asked if I’m okay because I haven’t posted on Facebook since Friday is proof I talk too fucking much. I turned off my phone. I’ll explain to my boss tomorrow that I won’t be carrying it. I gave away my tickets to The Cure. I don’t want to see my psychiatrist because he’s going to be disappointed in me but I need more meds. I thought of not taking them anymore but I think that would be a disaster. I’ve been lying in bed listening to music for six hours. I should get up.

Malcolm T. Liepke

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Alone


I slept on and off for hours, trying to rest. I took myself out to vegan ramen. I turned off my phone. I wish I could do that indefinitely but I can’t because of work. I’ve been reading The Eternal Husband by Dostoyevsky. The bitterness and rationale of the character Velchaninov has been making me laugh really hard. Not bad for a book I took a chance on because it was only $3.50. I declined going to Helter tonight. I don’t want to see people right now. I just want to be alone with Yelena and a pile of books.

Carl Melegari



Friday, January 29, 2016

Withdraw


I went to the office at 5 a.m. I finished preparing my notes for my budget meeting with my boss at 10 a.m. Twenty minutes before the meeting she moved it to Monday. I only went in to meet with her. So I went to lunch with Priscilla and then went home and actually slept a few hours. I feel good. I’m glad it’s the weekend. I can work on my book and read more of the three books I’m reading. I’m in the mood to withdraw. I’m considering keeping to myself until the end of fiscal closing in July.  

Lilyan Aloma

Thursday, January 28, 2016

York


I didn’t go to the office until 12:30 p.m. I did what I needed to do and went back home before 3 p.m. I think the lack of sleep has impaired my immune system. I feel sick and weak. I have a budget meeting tomorrow morning, which I will attend but will likely leave right after it’s over. I’m looking forward to the weekend. I need rest. I need to start thinking about my trip to New York after fiscal closing. Andrea and I will finally meet. I kinda want to meet in DC though so I can see Riley.

Asagi Natsume

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Babymetal


I haven’t slept for two days. Insomnia. I worked a thirteen-hour day today. For the past two days I went straight to the project office at 3:45 a.m. While lying in bed I’ve been talking to Yelena a lot. She’s not looking forward to this new character I’m adding. Someone expressed she’d like to kiss me. She’s on the other side of the globe, but it’s nice to feel desired and I think she’d be a good kisser. But still my heart wants what it can’t have. Babymetal tickets go on sale tomorrow. I don’t know how many to buy.

Babymetal