Saturday, December 31, 2016

Drunks


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New Year’s Eve. I’m at a café learning to use the Panda Planner I bought for 2017. I gave one to Stitches for Christmas. I hope we’ll find it useful. Tonight, I’m going to a club with Elo, Cynthia, and Sin Dee. I’ll have a lot of driving to do. I’m worried because of the drunks. I think of B_____ and all the times I’ve told her too late, “Don’t go out tonight.” If I die, I hope Salina will put out my book. Jessica, please pay for any remaining expenses with all the money you’ll get upon my death.

Dani Soon


Friday, December 30, 2016

80


I spent a few hours in the office today. Even though the campus is closed, there are still financial transactions occurring and I needed to approve over 80 of them. Since I was already there, I worked on some other stuff too. I went to an Indian restaurant for dinner with my lover. My car probably reeks of leftovers. It’s past three in the morning. I’m in a hotel room alone. Technically, it’s already the last day of the year. Like many have already expressed, this year has felt particularly awful. The deaths--David Bowie especially. The election. Aleppo. Terrorism.

Yujiro Tada

Thursday, December 29, 2016

Focus


I had my photo shoot this morning. It was easier to be in front of a camera than I expected. The photographer made me comfortable. We took 210 photos. I narrowed it down to four. I have friends and family voting for which one will be used for the book. The funny thing is that the photo I liked the most was not one the photographer would sell me because it was out of focus. I’m just not photogenic. And even if I were, I’m just not pretty. But as I’ve said before, I’d much rather be talented than pretty.

Yujiro Tada

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Midpoint


I went to the movies this morning with my nephews. I saw Rogue One for the third time. When I got home, I did laundry and worked on the outline to The Scribbled Victims sequel. It was my goal to establish the midpoint. Often I’ll do that and work out from there in both directions. It’s early evening but I’m already tired. I guess working on the storyline wore me out. I’m not looking forward to the morning. I have my photo shoot at 10 a.m. It seems silly to me, but I’m supposed to bring multiple changes of clothing.

Yujiro Tada

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Trunk


Someone broke into my car last night. They went through my things but nothing is missing. My car smells like cigarettes now. I’m wondering if someone needed a place to sleep. It was cold last night. I opened my trunk of keepsakes for the first time since 2003. I found the letters I was looking for, but couldn’t go through everything. It was like memory overload. I had lunch with Stitches and we exchanged Christmas gifts. She really liked her Blythe doll. I drank this ginger lemonade that was immediately followed by sweating and anxiety. Detoxifying possibly? Coincidental anxiety attack?

Stitches and her Blythe doll.