Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Tell


The meeting I mentioned yesterday was postponed until the following week, which is great news because I’ll have more reliable numbers by then. That goth bullying site I mentioned is apparently the work of multiple people, some of whom I have mutual friends with. That’s disappointing. I asked Priscilla to sit with me in my office to distract me. I was grieving over Ashley. The anniversary of her death is coming up. I wish I could see her again and talk to her. There are things I’d like to tell her that now I can only tell to her photo.

Christine Wu

Monday, June 29, 2015

Dislike


Mentally I feel okay today. Maybe a little on edge. I found out that I’m going to have a meeting this week that I don’t want to have. I was introduced to a Facebook page called Goth Fail that just bullies and makes fun of people. I just finished reading a book written by a poet I admire a lot. This was her first work of fiction. It was slightly disappointed with the book, but realized that the important thing is that it was finished and published. That made me feel less bad about the dislike of my last book.

I think this picture is so hot.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Zucchini


I left the club a little early last night because of my anxiety. It was very nice seeing Lindsay and her husband Christian. I danced a lot too. I slept in until almost one p.m. I don’t know why I was so tired. I didn’t go out once today. I talked to Stitches and Jessica Jackson. I read a book. I ate a giant zucchini with quinoa. Stitches and I are planning more and more for our Tokyo trip. I’m becoming really excited. We’re going to have so much fun. I leave for Puget Sound in less than a month.

Christine Wu

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Ruin


Today went by so fast. For one, I slept until seven a.m. Then I went to work from about nine to one. I had lunch and then came home and took a nap. I woke up a little while ago and did my Japanese lessons. I’ve got to shower now and get ready to go out. I’m going to Ruin tonight, despite my recent heightened anxiety because my friend Lindsay is here from Montreal. I’m very happy to see her. It’s been years. I’ve been debating all day on what boots to wear. I’m disappointed I didn’t write anything today.

I saw this online today.

Friday, June 26, 2015

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Thursday, June 25, 2015

During


I listened to Hyper-Ballad over and over again during my drive home and thought about how I answer when asked if I have trust issues when it comes to relationships. I habitually answer, “no,” even though I’ve been cheated on before. But I do have trust issues. Not with cheating, but with getting hurt by someone. In my life, romantic love has always led to getting hurt. I don’t only mean following the relationship, but more importantly, during the relationship. After it’s over, sometimes the love persists, so that’s something to cherish. I am afraid of you. I’m vulnerable already.