Saturday, January 31, 2015


Although it’s Saturday, I spent my morning and afternoon at the office again while the carpet installers worked. I finished the first chapter of a new book I’m writing and began the second chapter. I helped Kyrie with taxes. And then I read more of my Dummies book on Microsoft SharePoint. I usually love Dummies books, but so far this one isn’t very exciting. At least the installers finished all the work planned for this weekend today so I won’t have to come in on Sunday. I feel like going over to Vegan Pizza after the installers finish cleaning up. 

Tejfel Krisztian

Friday, January 30, 2015


I listened to John Wayne is Big Leggy five times this morning. I ordered three art prints from two different artists. More decor for my office. One is coming from Texas, two from France. I'm very excited for them to arrive. I responded to an email from Andrea. In it, I tried to be very plain about my feelings for her. I'm nervous about her reply. I phoned my psychologist today to make an appointment but had to leave a voicemail. I haven't seen her since December and it feels strange to have this long of a lapse with her.

Uttaporn Nimmalaikaew

Thursday, January 29, 2015


I feel Andrea and I are becoming closer every day. I hope it continues.  She wrote me something that made me laugh out loud during my boring meeting. Someone else at the meeting instant messaged to find out what was so funny, so I guess others noticed. I need to get back to exercising now that my foot is feeling better, but these long workdays are wearing me out. I doubt I'll even write today. Someone posted online that my books are "inspiring and shine perspective on friendship, selflessness and generosity." That was nice to know someone feels that way.

Pilar Zeta

Wednesday, January 28, 2015


Today was exhausting but good. I had a pleasant surprise this morning. Andrea came online and had time to chat. We talked about many things, including when she visited Mao Tse Tung's tomb and how there are drive thru funeral homes in America. I had to go to the doctor to get blood work done to check things like my uric acid and kidney function since I take so many antidepressants. After that I had to go to the project site and sit in hours of meetings. I had nothing to contribute but could work on my laptop while there.

Uttaporn Nimmalaikaew

Tuesday, January 27, 2015


All day meetings are mentally draining. Unfortunately, my schedule is going to include many days like this through at least the end of May. It could go beyond that, but I just haven't seen the schedule projected that far. I should really see my psychologist soon. I was supposed to call her on January 8 to make an appointment but I haven't felt like working her into my schedule. But there are some things I really need to discuss with her--mostly relationship and friendship stuff. I'm really looking forward to the possibility of taking a vacation to travel someplace.

Johann Ryno de Wet

Monday, January 26, 2015


Work was hectic today, but it was good. I got a lot done and I got to meet with my boss. I'm not looking forward to the rest of the week though. I'm in all day meetings Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Friday I only have a half-day of meetings. Riley called me on the phone today. I love when she calls. She makes me laugh so much. How fun it would be to get to see her every day. Too bad she lives in D.C. I wrote well. This story I'm secretly working on is pouring out of me quickly.

A picture of Riley and me in Hollywood.

Sunday, January 25, 2015


It's Sunday. I expected to be at the office with the contractors until 5 p.m. again today, but they finished early and so I was able to leave by 1 p.m. I worked on my Ink Bleed Books site and I also wrote over 500 words that I'll keep of a new story I'm working on. After I left the office I talked Mary into going out to eat. I picked her up and also texted Jessica Jackson who agreed to meet us at Shojin. We ate so much but I don't even feel bloated, probably because it's healthy food.

Mary and Jessica at Shojin having dessert

Saturday, January 24, 2015


At breakfast I eavesdropped on a father and his young son and younger daughter at the table beside me. The daughter said, "Thank you daddy for ordering this for me. It's delicious." She was eating pancakes. The son said, "I don't like it. I love it." The son later asked, "Daddy, where is heaven?" I couldn't hear his father's response, but following his answer, his daughter said, "I miss mommy." The father went silent and didn't move and just stared blankly for a while before recovering. It was heartbreaking to watch. I wonder what their family was like when whole.

Taras Loboda

Friday, January 23, 2015


I worked nearly twelve hours today and I'll be spending much of my weekend at the office as well. Kyrie texted on my way home. I can't go into details but she had a really bad day. I feel so bad for her and I could feel my codependent nature of wanting to rescue her creeping up on me. It makes me feel guilty. But she's stronger than my instincts give her credit for. She's handling things quite well. I had dinner with Farishta tonight. I told her all about Andrea, whom I didn't actually get to speak with today.

Soey Milk

Thursday, January 22, 2015


I only worked ten hours today. I was tired and just decided to go home. I picked up my prescription for Allopurinol; I'll take my first pill tonight. Andrea and I only talked a little today. She was busy in her lab and I was busy at the office. But it's okay, I can still feel remnants of yesterday when I got to see her on video. I began writing Chapter Six of The Scribbled Victims. I passed 10,000 words total. That puts me thirty days ahead of schedule for finishing the first draft by the end of the year.

Soey Milk

Wednesday, January 21, 2015


I met with my boss today. One of the things we discussed was me feeling overwhelmed with my workload. It's not going to get any easier any time soon, but I'll do my best to keep going. Something I hadn't planned on today was getting to Skype with Andrea for the first time. I finally heard her voice, and I love the sound of it. We talked for 94 minutes. It was so nice. She laughs a lot and has lots of things to say. I like hearing her perspectives and I love that she's so fond of modern art.

Soey Milk

Tuesday, January 20, 2015


I really enjoyed talking to Andrea today. My feelings for her are growing. I almost even used the L word, but I didn't want to be psycho. I went to the doctor again for my foot. Since it's gout I was given a prescription for Allopurinol. I'll have to be on it for the rest of my life. That's probably going to be the case with Wellbutrin and Latuda and maybe even Simvastatin. My kidneys and liver are going to be so overworked. I decided to re-launch the Ink Bleed Books website so I can start selling books directly again.

Soey Milk

Monday, January 19, 2015


This morning I mailed Riley the two Death in June shirts I bought her at the Lethal Amounts sale. I also sent Andrea a wrapped gift and card. It's her Valentine's Day present. I wasn't sure how long it would take to send to Brazil, so I sent it early. I hope she doesn't open it before the fourteenth. This afternoon, Mary and I had a huge lunch at Native Foods and then went to Seabirds after that for dessert. I'm still kicking the ideas around that I got at my writer's group yesterday. I don't know what to do.



Sunday, January 18, 2015


I met with my writer's group at Doomie's. We haven't met for months and we've never met someplace vegan. It's always inspiring and motivating to meet with my writer's group. It's nice to talk to them because they are so talented and there is so much we can relate to each other. Our goals and experiences are similar. We met for two hours and then Aaron and I talked for two hours after that. I have two new writing projects I've been inspired to work on. I don't know if they'll pan out into something substantial, but it's exciting nonetheless.

Lyubomir Kolarov

Saturday, January 17, 2015


I went to urgent care this morning. I had my foot x-rayed. Nothing is broken. So the conclusion seems to be gout. I was given anti-inflammatory medication. They helped. I've also been drinking tons of cherry juice. Kyrie made fun of my gout but in a nice way. I saw a cute necklace on Instagram today and ordered it on Etsy. I think I'm going to give it to Ashley. Andrea messaged me. She's in Sao Paolo earlier than expected. She gave me internet kisses and helped me practice my German. I finished reading two books while lying in bed.  

Rocio Montoya

Friday, January 16, 2015


I worked over eleven hours today with no breaks. It was tiring but I felt really accomplished when I looked at how much I got done. My foot pain is back. I can barely walk. I'm thinking again that maybe I do have gout because I haven't put any strain on my foot since Monday at spin class and I woke up this morning with my foot hurting. It got progressively worse as the day went on. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow morning. I guess I'll be spending the long weekend in bed reading and playing Words with Friends.

Rocio Montoya

Thursday, January 15, 2015


Work is so crazy. I'm so lucky I took the time to learn good organizational skills. I don't know how I would get everything done without them. Andrea wasn't happy today. Things in Brazil have been difficult. I wrote her a poem to cheer her up. It wasn't a good poem but I think it worked a little. On Instagram someone from Scotland mentioned that my Me and My Friend Maddie Gothic Book Series are her favorite books. That was thrilling. I don't have to go to the SIS project tomorrow but I have three meetings, one with the CFO.

I saw this painting by Christine Wu on Instagram today. I love it.

Wednesday, January 14, 2015


I'm so bored of posting how tiring work has been lately. But it wears me out so much that I don't do as much after work so I don't have that much to report. I just emailed Salina the text for Book 4 so we can start discussing the book design and typesetting. I did that right now just so I could have something to post about. Andrea and I told each other what kind of perfumes and colognes we wear. So now I can be creepy and smell her all the way from America. Even creepier...spray my body pillow.

Tristan Pigott

Tuesday, January 13, 2015


I went to the gym again today even though I was tired after a long day at work. In order to get there I told myself I just had to lift, but I ended up doing cardio too. I feel good. Also, I got a reminder how much better boners are when you exercise. My goal to finish my cardio was to go home and masturbate. It worked great. I talked to Andrea more today than we had been recently, now that she's back in Brazil. She told me I made her blush. That made me blush over my rosacea.

Tristan Pigott

Monday, January 12, 2015


It was a long productive day. I wrote a summary of illustrations I'd like to see in the new book and sent it to Kimberlee. I worked nine and a half hours without a break and got a ton done. I was really tired after work but forced myself to go to spin class again. I did a lot better this time. Even the instructor said so. It's past my bedtime now and I have four days of all day meetings starting tomorrow. I don't think I'll do my German lesson tonight. Andrea messaged. She arrived back in Brazil safely.

Tristan Pigott