Tuesday, July 31, 2012


My computer at work tracks how much I’ve typed and moused and freezes when it thinks I need to take a break. My laptop shuts the internet off between 5 p.m. and 5 a.m. so I don’t stay on the computer all night. I’ve often been told I have an addictive personality. I always hated hearing that. Historically, it’s been about drugs, cigarettes, and alcohol. I quit all of them cold turkey. I wish I could the same with computer stuff. I chose to install the limited usage software, but I don’t think I could do it all by myself.

Monday, July 30, 2012


The minutes went by too quickly today at work. I feel like I didn’t get much done. I suppose talking to Jessica on the phone for forty-five minutes didn’t help, but oh well, I’m not behind on anything. I wrote a week’s worth of Gothic Bedtime Stories for the meagothy Twitter. Fun. I’m thinking of getting a table at the Bats Day Holiday Black Market this year. It’s in November. This gives me a hard deadline to finish the follow-up book. I’m texting with Disco right now; that makes me happy. My eyes hurt. I’m writing this without my glasses.

Sunday, July 29, 2012


I wrote well today. I’m nearly finished with the first section of So This Bitch… I can tell I’ve been losing weight. Our attempt to make fruits and vegetables the majority of what we eat and avoiding processed foods altogether is quickly paying off. I’ve been watching the Olympics here and there. I really enjoy looking at all the different faces from the different countries and wondering what their lives must be like when they’re home. I like seeing their flags as well. Blanca talked me into having a book signing party. It will be on September first in Encino.

Saturday, July 28, 2012


I did more research on Lilith today for my next book. I’ve also been spending a lot of time updating passwords for over 200 different websites. That recent hack into all those websites made me worry because I have accounts with some of them. Hopefully, I’ll finish all the updates by next week. Obviously, I’m prioritizing which to update first. I wonder which site will be last. Poor website, you’re not perceived as important. Kyrie and I went on a long walk at sunset. It grew dark quickly. We encountered a stray dog that barked loudly at us. Poor doggie.

Friday, July 27, 2012


It’s been nearly three months since I’ve purchased bottled water. I decided to boycott bottled water beginning May 1. I’m thinking at the start of August, I’m going to try to increase the amount of plant-based foods I eat. I may cut out breads and other processed vegan foods for the entire month and see what the results are. So this will mean spending nearly all my shopping time in the produce section or at farmer’s markets. Of course this won’t apply if I eat out. I haven’t run this by Kyrie yet, but I’ll bet she’ll do it too.

Thursday, July 26, 2012


Apparently my doctor didn’t realize what I meant when I told him how high my triglyceride levels are. He called me in a panic today to go over results from my last blood test. When I heard the number I said, “Is that all? That’s low for me.” Apparently, the number was still off the charts, but like I said, it was low for me. So I guess the exercise and being stricter about my diet has helped, but apparently not enough. He said that my high triglycerides could lead to spontaneous pancreatitis. I’ll have to look that up tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012


Today felt like I should have seen my shrink, but I didn’t even though it was Wednesday. Maybe that means I miss her. Maybe it doesn’t. I’ll see her next week. I talked myself out of going to the gym today. That was bad. I met Kyrie on her lunch. That was good. We ate chips and soda. That was bad. That fucker who always smokes in the non-smoking area was smoking right next to the sign saying not to smoke. That was bad. That guy pisses me off. He looks at me often. He knows he pisses me off. 

Tuesday, July 24, 2012


I am completely caught up at work. I’m waiting for approvals from others on a couple of items, but aside from those things all I have to work on is a project I made for myself. I’m taking initiative and shit. I ate well today—lots of vegetables. My no coffee headache seems to be waning. I dragged myself to the gym and ran pi miles. Now I’m just lying around. I’ll read for a while before I fall asleep. I’m going to be in Caroline and Blanca’s wedding. I have months to work on the anxiety that will bring.

Monday, July 23, 2012


I finished outlining the follow up book in the Me and My Friend Maddie series. I think it’s pretty good. I’m looking in to incorporating a second myth involving mirrors in addition to the Japanese one I’m already using. I forced myself to go to the gym. My time running pi miles was basically thirty minutes, but I lifted first. I’ve noticed that I run slower on days when I do other exercises prior to my run. I hope that is to be expected, otherwise I’ll feel lazy. I still feel distant even though I’ve cut back on the meds.

Sunday, July 22, 2012


Judith Anomie and Marixa Akasha
This morning I learned someone from the clubs passed away from stomach cancer. I didn’t know her; I just knew who she was. I found it upsetting because she was young and so many people were devastated. It made me think of another girl from the clubs who died years ago. Her online memorial remains on MySpace. Someday, Facebook will be of no more use. I feel embittered knowing we’re resilient and that the club pictures will continue to post with all their smiles, on whatever social media is current, while someone is gone. It’s healthy. It just seems unfair.